before i was a mom

before i was a mom,

i never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

i didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisionous.

i never thought about immunizations. before i was a mom,

i had never been puked on.

pooped on.

chewed on.

peed on.

i had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

i slept all night.

before i was a mom,

i never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests, or give shots.

i never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

i never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

before i was a mom,

i never held a sleeping baby just because i didn't want to put him down.

i never felt my heart break into a million pieces when i couldn't stop the hurt.

i never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

i never knew that i could loves someone so much.

i never knew i would love being a mom.

before i was a mom,

i didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

i didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

i didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

i didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

before i was a mom,

i had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

i had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the heartache,

the wonderment,

or the satisfaction of being a mom.

i didn't know i was capable of feeling so much,

before i was a mom.

(~anonymous author~)

i am forever grateful to god for making me a mom and giving me 2 precious sons.

trace and lucas,

you mean more to me than you will ever know.

and i am so proud to be your mommy!